Okay, I’m back from Johor and I feel sorry for my grandma. I think she’s over 90 years old. She can’t recognize her own daughter sometimes and she’s slowly losing her eyesight. She’s losing her mobility and she can’t eat good food now can she? But the saddest part of her own birthday was when everyone was gathered around the cake. Somehow she seemed out of place. With all the aunties and uncles laughing and talking behind her chair, she seemed…. Blur. /:
On the way back home stuck in the car, I kept getting angry for some funny reason. I get mad fast. No idea why so suddenly. Like just now I just fumed cause mom and jie kept calling me stupid. Hot air was coming outta my ears then I sort of cursed my sis. I said I hope she fails at everything she does. Then I said I hope she fail her spm. Yay!
Then my dad said he doesn’t know what’s happening to me. Neither do I! Then I cried right there and then in the stupid fucking restaurant. Yay!
These things they say I am isn’t what I am anymore but the names don’t go away. They always come back. Even when I change. Yay!
Clumsy Stupid Picky Vulgar Crybaby
I stopped ok?! I stopped but everytime you call me that again, the habits come back. So someone look me in the eye and tell me I’m not trying at all. Cause I’m trying so hard I think I’m going insane!! D:
I am going insane! Why am I so emo the day before school starts? Sejarah? BINGO babeeh! Still… I look forward to seeing my beloved friends!! ;D
